I don't know...I have been paralyzed for at least two weeks now...AND I have known that I have art friends coming over TOMORROW! Have I cleaned??? Have I done anything to prepare??? NO! I have been OVER WHELMED!
So let me tell you how my day started off...I get up and drudge ( I am a drudger in the morning) and scrape my left toes (ALL of them) across the metal of the shower door, so I am in excruciating pain! Hello shower!
Then Michael is holding Crackers and I start talking to her and go to give her a kiss and she BITES my lip! Sigh
THEN at work I am on another special project all day and I bend over and all these 6x4 pieces of paper that are NUMBERED fall out of my hands ALL over the floor AND I had to pick them all up and then RE-FILE them by NUMBER!!!!! Gah!!!!!
I had a BAD back and hip ache after work...but lucky for me I had a 90 minute massage from my Julie the Divine!!! Magic Fingers Therapist!!!! I get there...I start to blubber like an idiot telling her how I am so fucked up because really I cannot even get it together enough to clean the house!
I told her that I just have felt incredibly bad, and then she said, yeah since your grandma's grave experience!!!! Ok...AhA moment! Yeah...and the crap with work, and that we still have no contract since July!!!! AND they are talking about taking away medical at retirement...why the fuck am I there if I don't get medical!?! I would go and do my art...but no I am in golden fucken handcuffs! To far into it because I cannot leave and I am at their mercy!
So after a few silly tears she began the work! And as I left I felt so good but knew I still had to go home and CLEAN MY HOUSE...so I cleaned until 11 and went to the store for the lunch and goodies we would have at the get together!
I did not finish cleaning tonight! Sigh...