The Gypsy on Adventure

Head Games - and not the Foreigner song!

I have been on a journey of getting healthier since June of 2018, I joined WW and I am grateful for their workshops and app, I have been able to lose 27 pounds so far. I am back in my normal fat clothes and I am so excited about that. I tried losing weight on my own, but I have no thyroid and I struggle. I have always eaten really healthy, I love vegetables and fruit, but I also love Cheetos! LOL I haven't had any Cheetos and I gave up my Dr. Pepper. (that addiction was lifelong) But I really want to age as well as I can. My stats are all great, my blood work is good, and I FINALLY found a doctor who is willing to test my thyroid levels every 3 months to make sure my meds are on track!

Today I had a huge moment of "OH SHIT I am an imposter"! I get so excited with everyone sharing their lives in the workshops, some of my friends were doing a 5K and I signed up for my first 5K!!!   I can walk 2.5 miles without too much pain but then I hit my threshold and pain grips me. So of course today I am all up in my head, worse case scenarios storming! The walk is on Sunday morning! The nice thing was when I mentioned this several friends said, that's ok! I will walk with you! So I am doing it! Putting my pain patches on, wearing good shoes and getting out with a group of other women working on themselves so I am doing my first 5K! Who the fuck am I? I would have NEVER have signed up for a 5K before! I have to say with all the head games my inner critic sends me on I am enjoying learning about the new me!

Every thing I love to do, draw, paint, knit, sew, bead, journal all involves sitting. So I have been really trying to incorporate more movement into my life. So today, even though I feel like an imposter, I am proud of myself for trying something new! And I am laughing at myself because I am still paying for the gardening I did on Saturday!!! I hurt! LOL So Sunday is going to be a mindful walk, meditation that I can DO HARD THINGS!

Clothes

Maryanne came over again and we were able to get through the rest of my clothes! Lots donated again to goodwill. Yesterday she took the art supplies to her friend for RAFT and she was really excited!!! yay! It feels good!

Today...all the rest of my clothes were sorted and packed! What is crazy is I have packed 8 large tubs on wheels with clothes...and I left out a tub because I don't know what to pack for the road. I still have to go through the shoes...sigh 

WGB went to do some errands and while he was gone Maryanne drove me to Walmart (I hate that place) to get a couple of totes! When we got back WGB was laughing because HE picked up 3 totes! Thankfully he did I used them ALL!!! Those blue totes you see there are all my clothes that I kept! Bags and bags and bags donated! There is absolutely NOTHING left in my closets or the drawers!

Maryanne was so sweet she brought us pasta chicken salad! Man it was good!!!  I am exhausted and my back is KILLING me...Ice ice baby!

Tonight was the Oscars! And I called Carol back, we must have talked for over 2 hours! I miss her a lot! She can always make me laugh until I cry! It was a great day...weird ending on the Oscars but I had a good day!

Clothes

I really am a clothes whore! I think I inherited that from both my grandmothers! They loved fashion and had tons of clothes. Well...I have been meaning to PURGE this for a long time!

Chrissy and I worked from 9-12 today just on my clothes. Went through ALL of my closets and PURGED I kept only 2 tubs of clothes from what we went through and she packed her SUV with the art supplies and at least 8 bags of clothes and coats! I only kept my art clothes and that which fit me! 

I still have some to go through but mainly the ones I have been wearing. Most of the stuff I purged I have not fit into in years. So it is good to let them go and have someone else enjoy them! I got rid of most of the coats except my art ones and my leather that fit me. I still had some of my super skinny clothes and leather jacket...it was time to say good bye! I feel SO much better that they are gone!  Chrissy even found a few outfits she wanted! And some jackets for her grands! win-win.

Then I passed out when she left!

New Beginnings

Since it is my last day off...boo for having to go back to work tomorrow! I slept in until 10! I couldn't believe it! I can't sleep passed 7 usually! AND then I watched the Rose Parade! A tradition I had with Grandma Carmen when she was alive....while I was watching I was cleaning my family room part of my studio...getting the supplies back into the part that is supposed to be my studio...and wow...I am making progress! I can see floor!!! LOL I might be able to vacuum today!

I found 6 Starbucks cards...I put them in my new Starbucks App for the iPhone and found that I have $65 on them! WOWZER! WHY do I keep paying with cash??? I have credit! LOL Oh! I found a $50 Amazon gift card I have been looking for! Now I can buy the books I want for my Kindle!!! WHOOT for clearing out the clutter! LOL

Hey! THERE is my blue/purple lap blanket I was working on with my size 10 addie turbo knitting needles!!!! Gah! I bought ANOTHER pair of size 10 just last week! See the virtue of being clean???? Hahahha  After I was tired I sat on the couch and knit some on that blue/purple lap blanket! Maybe next year it will be ready to give away! I see there are mistakes again...but I am not ripping it out again! It is what it is! 

Todays total walking steps: 3,052 steps.

Then around 8:30 p.m. my son calls from his car he is 30 minutes from my house!!! What? Its almost time to go to bed because I have WORK for the first time in a damn week and you decide to be here! grrrr....so Vernon Surprised me with a late night visit!! Grrrr would have liked to have been able to spend more time with him! about an hour that was it...but he at least stopped in to see me...have to be grateful! He got here at 9:00 pm and left about 10:30 pm and I have to go to work tomorrow! Damn it!  I am so keyed up I don't want to sleep now! :(

The weird thing is after all the years of my ex acting like he was sick, Vernon tells me he now has cancer in both his kidneys...doesn't help he is an alcoholic and chain smokes...not to mention any of the other drugs he does...sad he wasted his life.

Even the obligatory photo...even though I cleaned all day, and didn't get myself together...here I am au-natural! Snort But more important a photo with my kid!

Well, last week my new outfit came in, I love this artsy outfit! The drape of the pants, in gauze, has large pockets! It is so much fun and comfy when your back is out!

This is the jacket to the other part of the outfit I wore earlier this week.  It made me feel a little brighter today but it hasn't been a good day, today WGB came home, and I didn't get to enjoy it, I have been looking forward to this for 10 days and I couldn't enjoy it...got off work and had to crawl into bed...SICK...bleh! I am hoping it is not appendicitis... I have never had this pain before...ouch!

 

Love this clothes designer

Just because you are chunky doesn't mean you can't wear fun clothes! :)  Its out of silk.

 

Some times the only inspiration I have in the day is how I choose to dress...especially when I feel like I look so fat its not very motivating to leave the house!  Today I decided I needed color! So my purple skirt, and the orange top is actually another skirt that I use as a top! And I had to wear the sweater over it to cover my ink...but I think this is a fun outfit and made me feel happier to be out in the world.

 

Back to School or Torture the Child?

So G-boy starts Kindergarten this year, and G-ma wanted to buy him some clothes. We brought him a REALLY cool desk that WGB found for him (as he tells me HE doesn't have any G-boys! wink wink) and G-boy had woken up on the wrong side of the bed. sigh. But he was sporting a new hair cut...BUZZZZZZZZZ

Seems his mom just buys him clothes and if they fit they fit...me I tortured the kid by making him try on the pants and shirts! LOL Especially since the size they thought he was, was not his pants size, he is small. While I tried to encourage him that his uncle Vernon who he adores, does this and has shirts and pants like that too! That it was cool...he had a pout session and learned quickly that drama doesn't phase G-ma and G-ma seems to get her way because she is old and stubborn and has the check book! LOL Plus I was going to take photos of him doing this and he got REALLY upset...he wanted NO DOCUMENTATION that he was having a melt down in the dressing room! (I was giggling under my breath) Oh and did I mention the trying ON of shoes? the world was going to end! Snort Well after all was said and done, 2 new nice pants, 3 dress shirts, 6 casual shirts, 12 socks, 6 underware, 6 undershirts and a pair of shoes! G-ma was POOPED!

After the torture the child episode we went to Staples and we forget HOW LITERAL children can be. We pulled up and the WGB said "Ok were here to Staple you!" as a joke...G-boy thought he was SERIOUS...so I guess we were back to the torture the child thing! Snort

So after that step in the shit moment, we took him to a nice lunch at Claim Jumpers! That at least turned out to be ok, he at least enjoyed that experience and had his drawing item, they gave him coloring books and crayons so all things were good. I had a pomegranet sangria that was HUGE and forgot the bad stuff of the day! snort!

So the biggest hit of the day WAS his desk...

If you ever want to buy me anything...LOOK at these clothes! YUM

I LOVE Magnolia Pearl, I just can't afford it! But I SO want an outfit!