Head Games - and not the Foreigner song!

I have been on a journey of getting healthier since June of 2018, I joined WW and I am grateful for their workshops and app, I have been able to lose 27 pounds so far. I am back in my normal fat clothes and I am so excited about that. I tried losing weight on my own, but I have no thyroid and I struggle. I have always eaten really healthy, I love vegetables and fruit, but I also love Cheetos! LOL I haven't had any Cheetos and I gave up my Dr. Pepper. (that addiction was lifelong) But I really want to age as well as I can. My stats are all great, my blood work is good, and I FINALLY found a doctor who is willing to test my thyroid levels every 3 months to make sure my meds are on track!

Today I had a huge moment of "OH SHIT I am an imposter"! I get so excited with everyone sharing their lives in the workshops, some of my friends were doing a 5K and I signed up for my first 5K!!!   I can walk 2.5 miles without too much pain but then I hit my threshold and pain grips me. So of course today I am all up in my head, worse case scenarios storming! The walk is on Sunday morning! The nice thing was when I mentioned this several friends said, that's ok! I will walk with you! So I am doing it! Putting my pain patches on, wearing good shoes and getting out with a group of other women working on themselves so I am doing my first 5K! Who the fuck am I? I would have NEVER have signed up for a 5K before! I have to say with all the head games my inner critic sends me on I am enjoying learning about the new me!

Every thing I love to do, draw, paint, knit, sew, bead, journal all involves sitting. So I have been really trying to incorporate more movement into my life. So today, even though I feel like an imposter, I am proud of myself for trying something new! And I am laughing at myself because I am still paying for the gardening I did on Saturday!!! I hurt! LOL So Sunday is going to be a mindful walk, meditation that I can DO HARD THINGS!

I have some flowers that need to be planted but we are storming again, I had 2 days of great weather, bought the flowers and now rain, overcast and snow on the mountain! But here are some photos of my flowers. One of the little birds I feed is IN one of the flower pots! Giggle AND some deer decided to visit today!

 

Day 3 of the 100 Day Project: I spelled Quitting wrong...Oh well...its all just a practice.

 

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Comments

[BJ Scott]

Congrats to you and your 5K! No worries as it is All just doing the best you can. I have those "worst case scenarios too. You go girl!

[Kimi Bois]

Yay for working towards health, is not always easy but the end results always feel good. Cheering you on! (and happy you have friends to walk with you, I find that always helps)

[Nolwenn]

Oh amazing that your friends offered to walk with you, that's really cool. And go at your own pace. Congrats for signing up!

[Lisa]

I've walked a couple of 5k before, I have chronic pain so I understand where you're coming from. Just take it slow and easy. YAY for that friend that will walk with you.

[gypsy]

Thanks everyone! The FIRST of anything is the hardest! Even though I am still nervous I am excited now too! Than you for all the encouragement! It means a lot to me!

[Rachel]

Whoooooop! Awesome! You got this!