The Gypsy on Adventure

Heart of Gold

My friend Gina Bee sent me her heart! The bigger one is going in a shadow box for a vampire theme!!!
Bonus was the delish skull pin and heart ring!!!!

More Gratitude

<sub>This morning I am just grateful for my best friend that happens to be my boyfriend. I woke up crying and upset...and he pointed out it is not just because I am upset for my children...but that I was probably grieving too... 

He is trying to put himself in my place with his ex-wife and what it would feel like with his two kids...

I am just so heartbroken for my kids and what they have to go through this next coming week...I think it just finally hit me today and I can't seem to turn off the tears. 

I am so lucky to have WGB, he knows what my kids are going through, losing his mom and the conflicted feelings that brings up. He doesn't do well talking or dealing with death and he has been VERY supportive and loving...I know this is bringing up a lot of issues for him as we feel our way through this.... He told me that he can see it is bringing up a lot of emotions in me...having to relive some things I may not have wanted to visit ever again...along with the good. Another reason why I love him...he get's me.</sub>

Appreciation....

my brothers and sisters in the Fire Department that stepped up to help me and my family...words cannot express the depth of my gratitude in order to help me bring my daughter back to California, so she can have closure with her dad...

Knowing my children have to go through this to begin with is hard, but not having the immediate capability of getting one back home to view their dad was almost unbearable for me. From the bottom of my heart, my love and respect go to you...

To my family at the PD thank you so much for those that have been checking on me and loving me through this incredibly hard time. At least right now, knowing my daughter is going to be able to meet up with her brother is comforting. 

Thank you.

To my friends always by my side...I appreciate you.

 

 

 

The cycle of life...

 

 

 

Life changes in an instant....

I know that some of my friends are really protective of me, but be kind about how you react because my kids are really raw right now. 

Before I could get to work this morning my beautiful niece Naomi contacted me and had the hard task of telling me that my ex-husband had passed away. The car went off the road, 360 roll over, and we are pretty sure he died of head injuries from the crash.

He was in a car accident. For all we know right now it could have been a deer jumped in his path and he went off the road. He had moved in with his mom up in the sierra's, and I have spent all day trying to set things up easier for my kids to deal with. 

Everyone in Pioneer, Jackson and Amador County, the CHP, mortuaries and where the car is currently impounded are all very kind, and helpful people. 

I am currently trying to find a way to get my daughter back out to California from Texas for the 3rd time this year...I don't have the money to bring her out. So I am working on that... 

My son is moving today...

It has been very stressful for all us...keep us in your prayers...I don't know HOW to feel...but I am worried about my kids and trying to make the transition as easy as I can for them. It has been an extremely hard day. I was with him for 24 years and we were married 20 when I divorced him...those that know our story know how hard this must be for me...I never wanted bad to happen to him ever. I wanted him happy but I no longer wanted to be in a relationship with him. 

Right now my focus is solely on my kids getting through this...but as I told my daughter, this is how it is supposed to be, children lose their parents...it is harder to lose a child... It is too early for them to be losing their parents but it is the natural order of life...

I am extremely worried about my kids...so send good thoughts and healing white light to them...the hardest part is when we go to the mortuary for them to view their dad's body and say good-bye. Send me strength, because even though they are not my little babies like they were in the back of my Torino here, they will forever be my babies...and my responsibility in this world...this is the hardest thing we have ever faced as a family together...but at least we are together. I just wish we could wake up and have the world be different.

Excited

I am SO excited! The boy is moving IN with the girl! AND I see some grand babies in my future! Just sayin! I am loving this! ♥ EEEEEP! I love that he is brave enough to move forward in love finally!  I REALLY like this girl! I see my grand babies in her eyes! And of course I probably just scared the crap out of her if she reads this! LOL

I have ornaments dancing in my head...

I joined up for a swap and I just have to do SIX...but now I am trying to figure out WHAT to make! Eye like this idea!

 

Throw Back Thursday

Throw Back Thursday...1985...at Loch Lomond family picnic...I think I was 94 pounds! With the craptastic mouse AND you could still see the writing! Man...that was AGES ago...and loving my Dr. Pepper!

Happiness

“I urge you to please notice when you are happy, and exclaim or murmur or think at some point, ‘If this isn’t nice, I don’t know what is.’” ~ Kurt Vonnegut

One of my favorite photos of WGB and I...