I am trying to keep myself from spiraling into a darkness that would be
hard to get out of. So Life Affirming actions are what I will continue
to do...And with the relief that came from the love I have for HER, I was glad
that she found her way across, with who ever she was waiting for that
they FINALLY showed up to show her the way into the light. I know I
will be empty feeling for a very long time, I acknowledge that.
I am opening my heart so that I don't close the door to a friend that can be knocking, saying love me Gypsy, I am here, we can play, we can grow, we can create art together...
I am waiting for the words...and I will prepare my heart to say YES...
Grateful for Aloneness, sadness, relief, grief, change, love, warmth, embrace..."Start living now. Stop saving the good china for that special occasion. Stop withholding your love until that special person materializes. Every day you are alive is a special occasion. Every minute, every breath, is a gift from God."
-- Mary Manin Morrissey
I will STOP saving my good supplies for that "Special Art when I am good enough" I am using it today! Many lessons are learned by my friendship with Lucy, and this is one of them...USE up the good stuff! enjoy what you are creating!
I continued to work on the scarf...that was inspired by Lucy's love of Noro...but I keep having to rip it out...I keep fucking it up, through all the tears...and all the thoughts...It is really hard to continue working like all is normal...it just doesn't seem right that the world hasn't stopped...and I did finish up some of my practice drawing...
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