"Life without love is like a tree without blossoms or fruit."
Kahlil Gibran, "The Vision"
I guess I am reeling because I REALLY thought that Lucy was going to beat this horrible cancer. It is HARD for me to imagine life with out her bright light shining in it, without her giggle, without her infectious laugh. I cannot imagine art without her, things will seem to pale without her joy. But I have to grapple this concept because Lucy is refusing to even drink orange juice now, it won't be long. (I hope), I cannot stand the thought of her being like this. I am just sending good thoughts to her AND Roy who is taking great care of her. I cannot imagine what it is like for him, who has loved her for 30+ years!
I am watching the incredibly bloody Braum Stokers Dracula with really good actors in it...but it is freaking me out a little...and WGB says "Gee, I wonder WHY you can't sleep at night", hum...I just forgot HOW bloody the movie was...great story though! WGB is VERY good to me and takes care of my tender heart as best he can.
One of the good things coming from this time about Lucy, is that I am in more contact with our friend Carol, she called me first thing this morning, and my heart stopped a beat thinking she was going to tell me the time was here...but she just wanted to connect.
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