Another way to wear a Rosary...just thinking of Lucy. I have been thinking of a ritual I can do to keep Lucy with me...and I
think I have found it. I am going to wear the Rosary's we loved...you can see my guardian is by my side still, staying close...I am glad I took today off, I just would not have been ready to go back to work and act like my life is normal.
"Perhaps the most valuable result of all education is the ability to make yourself do the thing you have to do, when it ought to be done, whether you like it or not; it is the first lesson that ought to be learned; and however early a man's training begins, it is probably the last lesson that he learns thoroughly" -- Thomas H. Huxley
Today has been a hard day for me. I have been crying most of it, and trying to just immerse myself in art. I did hear from Roy and his daughter, his daughter Cindy feels very connected to me, which I am grateful for, because I felt that with her as well, they would like me to go up one day this week before she goes back home, and I will be able to take some of Lucy's things home with me. I talked him about some of the yarn. I want to go by myself, and maybe see the house less occupied and have some healing moments. I want to see Lucy's box as well, Roy has made a shrine for her.
I need to do this one alone. I may rent a hotel room...so I don't have to drive at night...we shall see...or I can just make it a very long day! I am going to enjoy spending some time with them. But I want to make sure I am not too upset to drive home.
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