I did a lot of crying today, in fact, it was perfect timing the minute I got on the freeway going home, my friend Mary called me on the phone, I was in tears and blubbering like an idiot! So, it was fantastic that she called, she talked to me until I was able to calm myself and what a gift that was for me! She is tuned into me that is for sure! I appreciated her walking through the feeling and calling me! Mary hasn't been at work, she is taking care of her mom, and I REALLY miss her!
The hardest part of the day was opening the door to Lucy's studio. I don't think I allowed myself to feel the full force until then...It felt like the Mexican Wailers I have heard at funerals...HORRIBLE and UNCONTROLLABLE. I think you could rent me out now, it is a primal deep cry... This was REALLY REALLY hard...
When I drove home today, I was stunned and moved and spent awhile crying in the house, no one was home so this was good for me. This is VERY special to me...knowing that Lucy sat at this wheel and spun magic just inspires me! My new goal...find a class. Roy thinks that Lucy took a class at the Half Moon Bay yarn shop which would be fantastic for me! I LOVE that city! I would love to learn there! So I will be looking into taking a class if they still offer it! He gave me the hand dyed wool as well, so I will be sure to use that...
I am SO grateful to have some of Lucy's things...my house completely smells like her right now...and it is comforting even if it is making me cry!
And I have my supplies together for my classes now...my SuziBlu and Illustrated Watercolor Journal class! I am so happy about learning and adding to my art...watercolor pencils, paints and oil pastels!
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