I STILL have to call to make a hair appt, find a dress and shoes for the Retirement Dinner on Friday...Sigh...I am overwhelmed! I just want to sleep until Saturday! I walked 3,160 steps today...better...but not great.
This seems to be my favorite outfit during the October/November months...I am sure people will get sick of seeing me in it! I have looked forward to being able to wear warmer clothes but damn, the weather is like in the 80s here in California! WHERE is my Fall????
When I run around like a crazy person and have time restraints and have to be back at work it is NOT a good thing to see a shrink on my lunch break and rush back to work...I don't feel I am getting what I need from this and I am so stressed out because I have to process while I am at work! It makes me too raw!
She is not really talking about my anxiety with all this death stuff...I can't get out of the anxiety and I understand she doesn't know me, but damn it I REALLY don't want to go into my life story and get hooked up on old healed wounds. I know that the fear of death has to do with MY abandonment issues...but this is BEYOND that...I am having dreams...I cannot stop thinking of death (other peoples death) before I go to sleep. And now some times I feel things and wonder if "I" am dieing...I never had that before I started to talk to her...gah...messy times in my head.
Tonight while I watched Buffy and Fatty boy was on my lap I took a little time to be in my favorite PJs my Tink bottoms and sketched!
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