The Gypsy on Adventure

Challenges/changes and a GREAT mail day!

Well this photo says it all about WHY I want to change...I really look heavy here!

Ah an Adventure today!

Next time we will be prepared with our totes!
I know that this must be old hat to all of you, but today was the FIRST time that the WGB and I went to Whole foods! I am making changes in my life and this was one I had been wanting to make since they opened in my town. The WGB wanted an adventure and so we went! I was unprepared for what I saw! WOW...we have decided to make this store our main shopping experience! We were SO impressed with the milk, eggs and meat with NO hormones, anti-biotics, or other nasty things in it! We bought better eggs as well...from non-caged chickens! After learning this year about our farms I am so happy to make the changes!!!!

AND maybe now I will stop having bad reactions in my body including inflamation on my nerve! Anything to help with that! AND be able to loose the weight! I am excited for the changes!

Victorian High Tea

Fan and I went to Menlo Parks Lisa's Tea, it was delightful! We spent our time going over every thing going on in our lives and bitching about our jobs and jerks we deal with! GAH...idiots are every where!  Outside the building was a fantastic piece of public art! Bandits! I loved it! There was so much food we took some home!

Our time goes by so quickly that I could not believe she got here at noon and when we looked at the time it was already 7 pm!!!!  We stopped off at Borders and I picked up some of the magazines I love and one had Patricia Joy on the cover! Yeah!!!! I had to get that one! I still have not found the one with LoriMarsha in it! May have to order that one.

I did do some knitting on my sweater...and I picked up my family room BEFORE Fan got here....so I am making a dent in the clutter...she offered to come and help me clean...you know you are friends when you do that...I may take her up on it.

I finished Lucy's scarf...I hate what I did to it...but it is on its way to Beth!

Its FRIDAY!

Well today my hair looked GREAT! It behaved the way it is supposed to look! I loved it. It rained a bit this afternoon so I didn't do my Friday walk. I should have in the rain anyway! But I don't need to get sick either!

Rock Star

Today I thought I would dress up like a rock star! It was great to go into work and see my old boss in a meeting...makes me REALLY miss all the good times I had at my job! My hair wanted to be straight so I didn't fight it.

I am fighting my body with the aches and pains from the walking...but I am going to PUSH through it and remember that these changes are because I want a better quality of life! Movement is key! Work through the pain and just move! 

I think on of the lessons I got in December, seeing an old friend who is really having trouble walking, is to MOVE get the weight down, and work through the pain to health. It is not going to get any easier as I age, so I have to start working on it now. And with the stress building, it is great to work out some! I cannot stand the size I am right now, but I am going to embrace it and work with it for my health. Celebrate what I can do and don't allow it to stop me from doing anything!

Change...is hard

There has been a lot of stuff going on in my head for months now...and I was just paralyzed with fear. Ever since my best friend was diagnosed with cancer it has shaken me to the core. I have been experiencing more and more anxiety attacks mainly at night when I am trying to go to sleep, I get hit with it. I figure it is because I am FINALLY relaxing for the day. Every time I help a friend to die, or know that a friend is battling cancer I start to fear death when I try to sleep...this is a pattern with me, I think it is just how I work it out in my spirit...So I have made some decisions about my life.

I have to do things that I have control over. To stop the anxiety from taking over my life any more.

It has confirmed to me that those people that are difficult to be around I won't be any more...I knew that, but life is just too short to put up with it...you have to have joy!  The other thing is to be as healthy as I can be. I can choose to change that. I can choose to work through all the stuff holding me back. The main thing holding me back ... my weight.

Breezy day...

Today was an EXCELLENT day! The Clicker/Tap dancer sitting behind me called in sick...I hope he is going on job interviews! He is annoying! I actually got to work without any noise behind me...working on my numbers project which tortures me on a good day let alone with some one clicking behind me! I felt SO relieved! My body had no stress in it all day.

I bought some new clothes (that fit) over the weekend so felt pretty good in them. I think even if you are over weight, if you wear clothes that fit you in a nice style, you will look really good. AND I knit like a crazy fool on my wrap! AND I was so excited that my new art came in! YUM I could NOT resist the call of the Mermaids. One of my art friends made these! I had to have them! AND I am so glad I did...I love them! They are making me smile at work and I will be able to focus on them when I have to find my happy space with Clicker/Tap dancer!

It was so awesome after work, I met up with a girl friend Jen, who I haven't seen in way too long! She used to be a volunteer with us, but left for a real job. I have missed her so we went to Starbucks and the time FLEW by! Seriously met up at 5 and we didn't leave until 7:15. The WGB even called me because he was worried, I am never out late! Giggle...but we had a great time yacking!

The interesting part, she feels held back by her weight, and god I am right there! She thought I looked great, I thought SHE looked great, but we both thought personally that we looked awful! Not accepting ourselves, we pay a huge price! It can keep us from enjoying our life! In fact, on Sunday when I was buying the clothes, I told the WGB that IF my ass gets any bigger I won't be able to bear to GO OUT of the HOUSE!!!! I am at that point! Changes have to happen!

Fear of art...I love Podcasts and my iPod!

I was listening to a really great podcast, I love craftcast!  And they were saying how you have to work with intention...when you go into the studio...have intention!

• I am finishing the book
• I am working in Orange
• I am working on the shrine

Write it down. Have goals.

But beware!  Perfectionism can lead to paralysis!
OHMYGAWD how true is this! I am so experiencing this! ALL the time! I have to let go of perfection and enjoy the journey! LET go of the fear of what others will think of my art!

Here is the question:
What part of your thinking has to die for your creative voice to live?

• Fear of acceptance
• Perfectionist
• Precision
• Judgement

All I can say....YUM!

Johnny Depp has signed a deal to step into the shoes of one of the most famous gangsters in US history, according to industry reports. (This is where I read this)

The Pirates of the Caribbean star is reportedly to play John Dillinger, the notorious Depression-era bank robber famed for his graceful heists during the public enemy era of early 1930s America.

Variety reports that Depp met with legendary crime director Michael Mann to discuss an adaptation of Brian Burroughs' 2004 book Public Enemies: America's Greatest Crime Wave and the Birth of the FBI, 1933-34, with shooting likely to start on March 10th.

Heat helmer Mann was thought to have been considering a spot in the director's chair for the Tom Cruise-starring spy thriller Edwin A Salt, but with Depp becoming available after the shooting of his film Shantaram was postponed, Mann has turned his attention instead to the gangster thriller.

FBI director J Edgar Hoover became obsessed with catching Dillinger, at one point spending a third of the entire bureau budget on hunting the thief down.

Rumours have persisted since Dillinger's death in July 1934 – after brothel owner Ana Cumpanas wore an orange dress during a cinema visit to alert nearby FBI agents to the presence of Dillinger – that he would routinely make prank telephone calls to Hoover as well as sending the bureau chief Christmas cards.

Personally...I hate seeing him die...even fake in film!

Common bonds

I have been living under a rock. I didn't realize that these two were together...two of my most favorite people in entertainment...ehem, besides my Pretend Boyfriend Depp of course! LOL

Helena Bonham Carter: In October 2001, she began her current relationship with director Tim Burton, whom she met while filming Planet of the Apes. She has appeared in all of his subsequent films. They live in Belsize Park, London, in adjoining houses with a connecting hallway, each part decorated and styled to suit their own personalities, because they felt they couldn't live 'together' but didn't want to live apart. The home was purchased when Helena became pregnant with the couple's first child, son Billy Ray Burton, who was born on 4 October 2003.  At age 41, she gave birth to her second child, a daughter, on 15 December 2007   in Central London. The baby did not have a name for almost six weeks, as Burton and Bonham Carter guessed they were having a boy. Numerous Internet websites stated for weeks that the baby girl was named Indiana Rose Burton however, Bonham Carter addressed these rumours by stating "Apparently on the internet she’s called Indiana Rose! [laughs] I don’t know where it’s come from but it can be that till she’s been named properly [laughs]." The name of the baby is still unreleased

That just cracks me up that Helena Bonham Carter and Tim Burton live exactly how the WGB and I thought would be PERFECT!!!! Seperately but together! Giggle