Well, this week has been good, MINIMAL pain, my eyes look good-clear, and my body is experiencing a senstation of JOY because I can walk without pain, I can sit without too much pain...such a change...
Now I am starting to get concerned, I am starting to think I am really in a depression from all the struggle with the chronic pain. AND this stress from all the medical crap...still waiting until Monday for the retake of the mammo and the ultra sound SIGH I am feeling so overwhelmed with life...and cannot get out of the muck! I have been trying to clean my house FOR WEEKS and cannot get motivated ... I just want to sit in the shit and cry. But I can't because unfortunately I have people coming to my house on the 28th and it can't be in this state of shit! Can I just throw every thing away and start over? Snort Even though I have a lot of gratitude I just feel a low grade depression on my soul.
I think I am going to have to frog it...the shawl and start all over again and make it a rectangle shawl vs the pointed shawl. After talking it over with Holly...I can't put store bought yarn with it...I will not be happy!
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