Ah we all got up without hang-overs thank you! Got ourselves ready, ate breakfast and headed out to do some shopping! This year I decided NOT to spend a lot of money! I will be debt free, I will pay off my new car and I just can't plain afford it! I have many trips to do this year!
So I only spent cash ~ NO credit cards for me...no no! Credit cards = slavery to me! I am going to get debt free!!!! (reminder to self) So that I can go and do the things I want AND so that I can buy the things I want without paying interest!
So I found this awesome baret hat HALF off! Yeah so I got it! Then I found a crown table name holder thing! AND a glitter "G" for Gypsy. AND in this fun French-Garden store I found an old cross and angel that has moss on it. Loved them AND they were only $5 a piece! I bought them! But Suzie girl surprised me by buying me a beautiful white Parisian soap dish for my bathroom! Thank you Suzie! AND I did get some funky unusual earrings that Michael has to fix but they are wonderful! Gypsy style for sure! That was it! nothing else! which is SO great for me! Under $100! I did great! Yeah for control of compulsive shopping!
We went home had a nice lunch spread of cheese, crackers, salsa, chips, olives...I didn't really get to enjoy it with everyone...I was on the phone with my son.
My son called...and had some REALLY bad news. Yes, for sure his marriage is over. I am so sad for him...and concerned. Seems she is having real issues and was placed on a 72 hour hold from the officers that came out. Apparently she told them she wanted to kill herself...so she is currently in a mental health fascility.
It is so hard for me...he has done SO well for himself...AND I am so proud of him! She wanted to move to Reno, he moved for her. They started out on their new married life...and I thought it was a good idea to be away from "my" family! They got back into collage and took full classes. He did that and worked 3 jobs! While she worked one full time job and went to school too!
They bought their very first place and started to remodel it. I was SO hopeful they were going to work out a good life for themselves. But I guess with the stress of school, working full time and Vernon working several jobs she began to stay out all night...one of his jobs he worked at night. Then he quit that job and made himself more available to her.
Too late...it is just not happening...and things are not any better and it is time that they move on. Maybe just maybe the high school love didn't grow into mature love. They have been together 10 years...and I do like her. But she is not being honest with herself let alone to my son. She is not honoring herself by being brave to be who she is. Things are what they are...I tried to express that to her. She is young she just may need to be "out" there and not married. No shame, just don't lead the one you say you love and are married to that you are one way, when in fact you are not. It prolongs the pain.
I don't think she knows in heart what she wants...and cannot look at it square and call it what it is yet. So I will have no grand babies with them and that makes me relieved right now, but so profoundly sad. I think they would have had beautiful babies together.
There is a great deal of unmapped country within us which would have to be taken into account in an explanation of our gusts and storms.
George Eliot
Beware lest you lose the substance by grasping at the shadow. Aesop
Our greatest glory is not in never failing, but in rising up every time we fail.
- Emerson
The heights by great men reached and kept were not obtained by sudden flight. But they, while their companions slept, were toiling upward in the night.
- Thomas S. Monson
No he didn't ruin my time with the girls, but I certainly had him on my mind. I only had a couple of margarita's and was the sober one of the group today for sure! But I still had a great time.
I am just very sad. And I felt a little sorry for myself...with all the dysfunctional stuff I have had in my life and apparently my son IS recreating his parents marriage...you do what you know! I am very sad! I want only good things for him, some one that adores him!
He asked if there is ANY ONE out there with a good marriage...I tried to explain I have NO desire to marry again...but that I adore and love Michael and that our relationship is awesome! But we are individuals...there is none of that unhealthy stuff going on in our relationship!
I know some good marriages but they ALL have issues...that is life. You have decide if you can live with what the problems are or if it is over and move on. Life is messy.
After another fabulous dinner there was more time for charades! I went to bed early I was tired...listened to my iPod did some crossword puzzle (which I am bad at) and then tried to sleep! Sue and Nancy stayed up playing Yahtzi and Scrabble till 1 am! Giggle
I guess I have issues sleeping when I don't have Michael there and the usual house noises! But I don't mind when it is all for having fun!
Gypsy, so sorry to hear about Vernon. Tell him that there are FANTASTIC marriages, and I am so blessed to have a one!! I hope he can get through this and heal quickly. Love is out there! Beth
Posted by: Beth | Thursday, March 29, 2007 at 12:01 PM