I have been having a REALLY rough few days. Alien is REALLY draggin her hind legs...and I can't tell anymore if she is eating and drinking water...or going potty for that matter. We took her in to the vet at 2 p.m. I was expecting the absolute worst that we would have to put her down...she open mouth breathing the entire way there, and I made Squeeks go with her in the carrier...she he spent the last few (almost 3 hours) at the vet with us.
She got kinda spunky while we were there and walked better than she had been here...but it is not great still. We had x-rays taken and apparently she has a growth on L9 and L10...she is not feeling anything along her back...and although she moves her back feet when pinched she is not responding to pain.
I think we are on the down side of her issues. The doctor expects since she is such a "Stress Monkey" (I love that term of endearment) that she will stop eating and drinking water when it is really bad if she feel pain. The doctor does not believe she is in pain.
I am in a quandry...she suggested a MRI which would cost HUNDREDS and is located in Berkely...and Alien would never make that long of trip to be put through the MRI AND then the ride home again...and that would only be to a most likely suggestion of surgery on her spine...again not a good option if you know Alien.
So the Doc wants us to give her some mild anti-inflamitory and wait for their Radiologist to read the x-rays...she cannot be placed on steriods because her heart mur-mur is a classified 4...and could put her in cardiac arrest.
I am just so sad I can't stand it...last night I couldn't stop crying in the middle of the night and I didn't get much sleep...I love this little one so much...she has always been so special and weird to me! She when she feels good loves to sleep on my head! I just think I have to start preparing myself for the worst because I don't think I am too far off from having to put her to sleep and I am just agonizing over it. I don't want her quality of life to be so bad! AND I was happy that she is not in any pain, I was REALLY worried about that...and I cannot handle her suffering. Truly this is the worst kind of decision that I am just not capable of making...let alone have to sit in the room holding her while Doctor Death comes in...I am in agony. I am NEVER getting any more animals! I just can't take it. My emotions and heart is just hurting so bad.
Her sleeping on my head a couple of years ago, Michael was able to snap the photo! the middle one was taken in September she was all snuggles, ...and then the last one showing how hard a time she is having I took on December 30th.
Ah, Sweetie, this is awful! I am so sorry that Alien is doing so poorly. I'll be praying for you both.
Big hugs, Dee
Posted by: Dee | Monday, January 01, 2007 at 05:53 PM
:(( I'm so sorry, Gypsy girl. Our kitties are just our best friends...and it's awful to have to see them go through these things.
Hugs and prayers are with you both.
Posted by: Corinne | Monday, January 01, 2007 at 07:05 PM
Im new to the artistazine list and oh kiddo, I am so very sorry to hear all that your little one is going through. I lost my beloved cat Tango two years ago in March. He was 15 and passed in his sleep. Our 9 yr old dog, Buttons, has been gone a year and half. I'm keeping you in my good thoughts and prayers. Take care and Blessed Be. Diana :-)
Posted by: Diana in KY | Wednesday, January 03, 2007 at 05:40 PM
Oh what a hard thing to be going through.
Much love to both of you and I will keeping you in my thoughts.
Posted by: Heathen | Wednesday, January 03, 2007 at 07:52 PM