The Gypsy on Adventure

Hot Kitties

Ha! H E A T W A V E ... Alien is so pitiful I didn't want to show her! These are the days that I feel so bad that they have fur! At least we have the bay breeze coming through tonight so it is cooling off the house.

Tag Art

Oh my gawd!!!! I got some GREAT mail today!!! Looooooook!  Beth my little stalker sent this to me today...she must be paying attention that I have that Paris thing going on! snort! Isn't this a GREAT tag!!!?

Great Mail Day

Giggle! I had a great mail day! Verdigris Fatbook showed up at lunch!!! YUMMY serious art book! I am in love with this book, the artists out did themselves...wow! I am in love with green now!

AND...wowza! Izabella! her little album book and atc's ... mind blowing!

A little good news...baby steps

I was upset all day long, when I talked to my grandmother this morning, she sounded bad! I mean REALLY bad! I have been trying to figure out the damn Amtrak site! Grrr why can't people make websites USER friendly?????

She scared me this morning! I mean I have NEVER heard her sound so sick ever!  They put her on oxygen and she still sounded bad.  The way things are going I don't know when I will be able to get there...The thing that I am grappling with is that I did not get close to my grandmother until I was in my 30s...I had been left behind...the last time I had seen her I was 12...then at 33 I found out that I wasn't really an alien...I had connects to my family ... genetic ties ... people who did art like me. She collected the same things I did... and she was not in my life.  I just got to know her over the last 11 years and I am not ready to let her go. I love to call her and just laugh. Talk about how similar we are, we both find that amazing. And I will miss that connection that I had finally found within our relationship.  I will miss belonging to the thread of the past.  I will miss making her giggle.

Then when Margaret called tonight she said she was doing better, she was joking and saying things like her boyfriend got carried away because he was drunk and roughed her up! Giggle The reason for her bruises on her arms vs the blood drawing! Grin. So that made me feel better, when she told me that I started crying ... I hadn't done that yet and it felt good to release the fear!

Quote

I have learned, as a rule of thumb, never to ask whether you can
do something. Say, instead, that you are doing it. Then fasten your
seat belt. The most remarkable things follow.
~Julia Cameron     Author - The Artist's Way

Art

I couldn't stand it anymore, I have been so sad I HAD to do some art...I can't post yet because it is not all dry...felt good to do something even though I should be in bed!

Scared

There is nothing that will send fear through your spirit than the voice of some one you love in health trouble and there is nothing you can do for them. Today my grandmother was so out of breath she couldn't talk to me...I just got off the phone with Margaret and it has scared her too.

Just not happy about this...twice today they gave her a nitro...don't know if it is really working or not...

I have never heard her so bad...this is just making me sad...there is absolutely nothing I can do, but talk to her and give her a reason to live.

Quotes

Don't be afraid your life will end; be afraid it will never begin.
~Grace Hansen

Quality begins on the inside... and then works its way out.
~Bob Moawad

No man ever became great or good except through many and great mistakes.
~William E. Gladstone

Love blinds us to faults, but hatred blinds us to virtues.
~Iba Ezra

When your heart speaks, take good notes.
~Judith Campbell

Fathers Day

Well, called my dad today for fathers day but ended up talking about grandma the whole time, and I talked about what SHE wants to happen if she passes away...those are ALWAYS tough conversations...especially when you are not there and it is all done over the phone.

She had a rough night...so I didn't call her today...when I get up tomorrow I will call her before I leave for work and check in on her...they are talking maybe Friday for releasing her, the blood work is still not good, she is having a lot of swelling in her limbs again, and I am sure it is congestive heart failure stuff happening.  They have her on gatoraide rather than all the water she was drinking...

This whole process is just making me very sad.  And I am just glad I have her photos up in my family room where I can look at her all the time. Sure wish I was there...I am trying to figure out how I am going to get there...

Fatbook up on Ebay

Another one of the Fatbooks I was in is being auctioned off on Ebay if you go here you will see the information! It is a TARO-IFFIC little fatbook! I really love this one! I was glad that I was a part of it! I actually had two pages in it! I loved them both!

The auction will benefit Bernie Berlin and her animal rescue efforts (A Place to Bark).