Self-Esteem

Today the discussion between some of my friends was Self-Esteem, this is a statement from my girlfriend Mary (Star Shine Girl)..."Starting out with what I learned today in Psychology class that self-esteem is like a muscle and needs to be exercized every day to keep it strong. I am focusing on that, and I think we all should, so that we can appreciate the unique individuals that we truly are.

Of course I had to make a back handed comment about myself... "Oh I like that! I will have to include this in my journal! My muscle of self esteem has been very low lately...I guess it is another thing I NEED TO EXERCISE! LOL One more thing to remember to do! And it will make me feel better...rather than the lump of darwin slime I feel like lately! Can you tell I have been in a bash Gypsy mood lately...feeling like a failure because I can't seem to lose this damn weight?!!!! UGH Failure failure failure FAILURE!!!!! Have to stop DOING that to myself.... Accept my body where I am...let go! Thank you for the reminder! :-) I need a Self-Esteem boost!

Again SSG said to me: "As a child, we believed what we were told, and some of those negative things we heard stay with us as inner voices and we start blaming ourselves... We are no longer the child, believing everything we are told. So you can be the individual that you are, unique, unlike anyone else. Because of this, there is no need for you to compare yourself to anyone else. You are not a failure. Self-esteem is not a contest. We LOVE YOU!!!!"

What a truly nice thing to say! Now if I can just get over the insecurities that I feel to my bones! LOL

Now I am laughing my chunky butt off! LOL This reminds me of what my wonderful Mother Queen Bitch said as I was growing up, "I don't have beautiful or pretty girls, my girls are UNUSUAL looking, UNIQUE"!!!!

Oh yeah, that tape definately runs in my head! LOL

Then when that didn't work, there was ALWAYS the name I SWORE I would legally change it to..."F'n Bitch!" Ah the memorys are returning! :-) Then I go and marry a man JUST like my mother! I still get called the familiar name! Hum...must have been comfortable! LOL Thank god I fired both my ex-husband and my mother and moved on!!!! LOL

Now that I have Michael in my life...its not bad being UNIQUE! LOL And then I have great friends like Mary that remind me that I am loved! And God I just hope my spirit catch's up to her words and that I will believe that I am not a failure deep in my spirit and not just my head! :-)

Insecure but...Getting stronger! :-)

Comments

[carolyn]

I should go grab some of the kindest, warmest comments you wrote in my journal and paste them here! You are one of the sweetest people I've ever "met" online. You really are a gem. It hurts me to think you don't think as highly of yourself as I think of you. :)