Have you ever known a horrible person? A friend of mine is going through cyber hell right now with a woman who is stalking her online. I couldn't just tell my friend all of this I felt a need to post this to my journal. Maybe reminding myself that those that have hurt me will also have this outcome. I know that some day...who really knows, maybe it is occurring now...karma is going to bite her in the ass. She is such a horrible person...some thing is going to happen to HER.
It is a universe that has laws...laws hold the universe together. Like Ying and Yang, you Reap what you Sow, that kind of thing. There is a balance to the world.
The truly horrible toxic people that I put up with in my life for SO LONG... Those people are so unhappy, so toxic, that even the thought of them coming back into my life to hurt me again, I think in my deepest part of my soul - how sad for them. As much as they try...I do not allow the toxic thoughts to consume me...I am through the other side of it. I REFUSE to be held hostage by their hatefulness...and MOST of all I REFUSE TO SEE MYSELF THROUGH THEIR EYES!
Because as MUCH as they must HATE me...in order to do the horrible and hurtful things to me that they have done...As much as they HATE me...imagine a moment, how much THEY HATE THEMSELVES.
Also,I have noticed in my life that those people that I truly can not stand to be around touch on a part of my life that I truly don't like. A response even on the feeling level that I would never let anyone else know about...some how that person may strike a deeper cord in me...showing me that in my sinue I COULD, not that I am, but I COULD be like them...and maybe that is why "I" truly respond to them the way they are. Because "I" don't like that part of myself.
"Hate is the consequence of fear; we fear something before we hate it; a child who fears noises becomes a man who hates noise." - Cyril Connolly, writer and journalist
"I have decided to stick with love. Hate is too great a burden to bear." Martin Luther King, Jr.
"A loving person lives in a loving world. A hostile person lives in a hostile world: everyone you meet is your mirror" - Ken Keyes Jr.
Your journal holds good lessons for me. :)
I'm not a very peppy talky sort of girl, so I can't match your powerful words--here or in the comments you made in my journal--but know that you are touching someone in a big way with your writing.
Great quotes, too.
Posted by: carolyn | Sunday, June 06, 2004 at 07:57 PM
Dear Carmen, I appreciate your words of wisdom. As always, I am impressed with the way the words seem to flow so easily from your mind to the typed page. You are a gifted writer. Love, SSG
Posted by: Mary | Saturday, June 12, 2004 at 11:48 PM