I am not having a good day...went to feed the birds in my back yard and a RAT (or a really big mouse) was hanging on my bird feeder staring at me! GAH Then when I screamed it ran up the tree limb and stared at me!
I guess I got my exercise when I RAN back into the house!
The boy told me he was coming down, so I rearranged everything. I got up at 730 am aftre not getting to bed until after midnight, to run errands go to holistic doc, food shopping, pet food shopping, gardening, laundry, cleaning the house.... Cooking chili all day long for the boy.... Changed my artful plans...
All moot...the kid had a front flat tire on his harley on i80!!! gah! didn't tell me until late, I have TONS of friends in the area! He could have stayed with some awesome people!
But look at the most awesome chili I have made in years!
Since it is my last day off...boo for having to go back to work tomorrow! I slept in until 10! I couldn't believe it! I can't sleep passed 7 usually! AND then I watched the Rose Parade! A tradition I had with Grandma Carmen when she was alive....while I was watching I was cleaning my family room part of my studio...getting the supplies back into the part that is supposed to be my studio...and wow...I am making progress! I can see floor!!! LOL I might be able to vacuum today!
I found 6 Starbucks cards...I put them in my new Starbucks App for the iPhone and found that I have $65 on them! WOWZER! WHY do I keep paying with cash??? I have credit! LOL Oh! I found a $50 Amazon gift card I have been looking for! Now I can buy the books I want for my Kindle!!! WHOOT for clearing out the clutter! LOL
Hey! THERE is my blue/purple lap blanket I was working on with my size 10 addie turbo knitting needles!!!! Gah! I bought ANOTHER pair of size 10 just last week! See the virtue of being clean???? Hahahha After I was tired I sat on the couch and knit some on that blue/purple lap blanket! Maybe next year it will be ready to give away! I see there are mistakes again...but I am not ripping it out again! It is what it is!
Todays total walking steps: 3,052 steps.
Then around 8:30 p.m. my son calls from his car he is 30 minutes from my house!!! What? Its almost time to go to bed because I have WORK for the first time in a damn week and you decide to be here! grrrr....so Vernon Surprised me with a late night visit!! Grrrr would have liked to have been able to spend more time with him! about an hour that was it...but he at least stopped in to see me...have to be grateful! He got here at 9:00 pm and left about 10:30 pm and I have to go to work tomorrow! Damn it! I am so keyed up I don't want to sleep now! :(
The weird thing is after all the years of my ex acting like he was sick, Vernon tells me he now has cancer in both his kidneys...doesn't help he is an alcoholic and chain smokes...not to mention any of the other drugs he does...sad he wasted his life.
Even the obligatory photo...even though I cleaned all day, and didn't get myself together...here I am au-natural! Snort But more important a photo with my kid!
A co-worker left her personal desk and didn't want to take it, we used it for some time as our work space near the copy machine, but then they wanted to get rid of it! I took it! YEAH me! A new clean great space to create my altered books and collage work! One I won't pile crap on!
I cleaned all day yesterday (not that it helped) but enough to fit it in, and where it is I can look out into my garden...I like the space a lot...And I am already creating on it! Its been fun to work again! I just am squeeze a little by my cats cage and the desk but it works for me...until the rest of the room is finished! For now, I am not cleaning any more! Small changes...large benefits! I got rid of a lot of stuff yesterday! I feel better...not GREAT but when its all done I will feel good again!
First thing WGB said...don't put a lot on top of it so you can USE it! LOL I have to agree! No piling! NO dumping! Just working!
Ok I found them: We searched most of the night...some one on the street behind us (Who most likely heard us screaming for him yesterday, had him in their house! He died this morning in their bathroom!
What is wrong with our society is there is no moral code anymore! He had a collar ON with our phone number!
He could have died at home...but NO...our neighbors did not see fit in calling us! NOR did they see fit in calling us when he died. Instead we got news from the humaine society in the next town over that they had his body!
WGB identified him and got his collar...THAT is what I woke up to this morning!
I am angry that people have NO COMMON DECENCY. If I had some ones cat in my house because I was worried, and heard them CALLING for them for hours, I would have picked up a damn phone!
So grief and anger walk hand in hand...as I miss my boy!
It seems like there is a lot of growth in the veggie section of my garden...but it is taking a LONG time to get there! But the Poor mans orchids are doing well that Loretta gave me! From seed! Yeah working!
Its my last free day before I am sent back to the salt mines of working. I am just not enjoying it anymore. It makes me sad. I had such a passion for my work, and I am now drained of it. So today I keep going back and forth between denial and dread! LOL
I did not accomplish all that I wanted to on my week vacation, like cleaning my house, but who needs a really clean house? Well me, so I can have people over without shame! ha but I did do my laundry, clean my bathroom, actually threw some things away! go figure! Especially since I really don't use hair spray and some of the goop I bought thinking it would make me beautiful rather than the hag I am turning into! Dreams in the garbage! LOL The loose skin on my neck did NOT firm! LOL
I did spend some time in my garden, I have Crackers in her outside cage, because she has decided to be annoying lately...she is whining as I type because she wants back in! That is no! It is a nice day and you will LOVE the patio damn it! LOL AND stop screaming and getting on my last nerve!
I tried to find the 2nd skein of orange fire yarn I bought and misplaced since I have knit up the 1st skein and want to wear the damn scarf! A reason TO clean my studio! To find things! To finish things! LOL I am still binding the Lucy book, I put two more signatures in, but I get so sad I have to stop. Maybe this will get done! It makes me miss her when I work on this.
I have to get some balance back in my life. Since being on facebook I haven't really been keeping this up and if I don't keep this up why do I have it? I just paid for another year...I better use it! It just seems lately that every thing is speeding up, that there is no time to do all that I want to do, and that time is running out. I don't know why I feel that way, it scares me. I just feel so mortal lately. I guess I just have not stopped obsessing about death since Lucy was diagnosed with cancer in 2008. I have not been able to shake the sadness...and some times it just feels like it is coming out of my pours. And I am VERY weepy today. I keep tearing up...I am still so raw feeling. I think I hate hormones! especially when they are out of whack!
The dust and mildew in my bedroom is not helping with my health. I have been working for weeks on my room, to clean it up and make it more healthy. I think I am going to be forced to have help. I may capture WGB's daughter to help me purge the closet and forward clothes on to Good will and be done with the over crowding of clothes! And shoes! It is time to parr down...and get rid of some things...there is just too much still! I was able to clean up enough and open some windows to get some movement going. It was a rough Winter. Since she is young and not in pain I will have her dust my room...I tried today and had to stop. I did vacuume and get my bed linens in the washer...I was able to clean around the windows and they are open and pulling a breeze through! I feel better about that! I think I may get it all together at some point! Wouldn't THAT be nice! I am starting to wonder if this DEEP sadness I can't seem to shake is depression from the thyroid being whacky...I know the anxiety is, so maybe this sadness is too. I hope these meds start to get balanced! I am tired of feeling this way!
I still cannot make a decision about my phone! I almost bought the Droid X yesterday, but then right when I was going to push the button, WGB said he was reading a post about how ONLY 20% of Droid users would buy another one! Whereas, 70% of iPhone users would buy another iPhone...I keep going back and forth on this! I love me some Apple products...but do I need to pay an average of 12% more for it when I have the iTouch and the iPad?