Man...what an emotional day! I got an email from my 3rd cousin from Ancestry.com! Come to find out I knew her as a kid! She sent me a photo of my grandmother who raised me...and I broke out in tears! I had never seen a photo of her when she was young. In this photo it is 1940 on the Russian River, with her family, goofing on each other. She is the one in the middle.
It freaked me out because I can REALLY see myself in her. Its hard to believe she was 35 in this photo! It TOTALLY is eerie to me...because while I knew her she was always wrinkly and old looking...I have never seen her this young...and wow! Just Wow! And the fact that I do look like her...crazy good realizations.
This just made me so emotional all day. SO many questions came up. Again, I miss her so much, she passed when I was 19 and I sure wish I could have asked MORE things about life... For instance WHY was this the first photo I have ever seen that shows her young? For what I know about her life, only a couple of years later, 1942, she lost he 18 month old son AND the love of her life, her 2nd husband (my grandfather) from TB, WHILE she was pregnant with my mother. I think this was pivotal and I think that she never fully recovered from this.
My cousin Dee wrote me this:
In your grandmothers earlier years she and her two brother along with my Mom and dad did a lot of things together they loved each other dearly, your grandmother was a lot of fun.