I started to get some text messages from my daughter...calling my biological mother and half sister the C words! Ack...DRAMA! But its not like I haven't warned her not to be around those blood sucking people! and here is a shock...they are hypocrites! Bahahahaha who knew?
I told her to send her brother over and pick up their Christmas gifts so that at least she would have a good morning...so Vernon stopped by and picked up hers and the babies gifts...I KNOW she will at least have a good morning!
There are MANY reasons why I don't associate with the family...egads.
It made me even MORE grateful for the decisions I finally made...that I choose to be happy! That I choose NOT to be around those fucked up people...yeah me!
The big boss let us off EARLY EARLY EARLY I was able to get all of my Christmas shopping done...AND go grocery shopping! Today was awesome! Now I am at home drinking some wine with WGBs dad and step mom...in a VERY clean house! It feels good! Yeah Me! AND I get to sit and knit because Barb crochets! Yeah me! AND knits dish cloths!
So happy to have them here...I was so stressed out but it all worked out in the end! Yeah for that...no more stress...and just an enjoyable time.
Every thing that HAD to get done DID get done including a pretty kick ass dinner I made!
WGB was able to at least do the kitchen, the floors, the refrigerator, but man it is still not up to where it should be...DREAD people DREAD!!! When I looked up they had left Pledge on top of one of my shelves...rolling eyes...Of course I get home we are sitting in the living room talking and what do I smell????? HIS CAT SPRAYED my couch because now it was in HIS area!!!!!! I hope they didn't smell it....
Today I have to get frabreeze and pray that it cuts the fucking smell!!!!!! That is the odds for me! My cat doesn't spray...never been able too...I am pissed off! LOL No pun intended! Great timing on his cats part! I could ring his neck!
We were not prepared...no food here...so we took them to dinner...since we are not great house keepers I am FEARFUL of the judgment of others...with my back injury I just can't clean like I want to...but I did every thing I could...every thing is in storage that is clutter except my studio area...not perfect but I know it is clean!
Barb was sweet and brought a HUGE basket of home made goodies...she even made the towels!!!
In my monthly newsletter from a knitting warrior, she said these words of wisdom...I am not excited about the holidays I am FREAKING OUT....bad....I hate these holidays and I hate that I am doing some thing so taxing and getting no where fast...so I will take a breathe and keep on keeping on...and hope beyond hope of what I am seeing right now that it will all get done!
no other period of the year is so charged with emotion asthe Christmas
holidays. Some are caught up in the churn and hurry of
bustle and cheer while others seek only to avoid the wholething -- too many memories, too many used-to-be's
packed under the tree. For someChristmas has no religious significance and maybe no shopping
For me with no family living near, I've learned
to make my own meaning from the season. It's not about giving or receiving a
big glut of presents (though I don't turnany down) or about family dinners where all our old
relationship patterns get strewn about the table along with the turkey. Time
has a way of putting some things into perspective. These days, I'm happy to
have good friends and love which is more important than anything material. With change
the only constant, I've learned to retool my expectations and burn my lights
more brightly despite the losses. This is the challenge of being human.
Light, laugh, eat and knit is my holiday
mantra. But wherever you are in mind or being this
season, I wish you all the gift of light, light to illuminate the darkness,
light to ignite the glow of hope, light to remind you that we are all part of
something greater than ourselves no matter what our beliefs. In the end, as in
the beginning, our commonalities are more abundant than our differences.
“Listen with the night falling we are saying thank you...” — W.S. Merwin
Anxiety HIGH....still packing and packing and back aching and aching...and tooth throbbing and throbbing...and the parental units are still coming...sigh...I am FREAKING out...it looks worse than it was when we started....bull dozer...that would solve the issue! Of course all I want to do is sleep...that is the depression talking....