No, forgive me. If you are not living, if you, beloved, my love, if you have died, all the leaves will fall on my breast, it will rain upon my soul night and day, the snow will burn my heart, I shall walk with cold and fire and death and snow, my feet will want to march toward where you sleep, but I shall go on living, because you wanted me to be, above all things, untamable, and, love, because you know that I am not just one man but all men.
La Muerta by Pablu Neruda (it is actually only a section of the poem)
I thought Linda S had perfect care for me. It is like she KNEW that I was going to see Lucy Lee and stay at her magical home! When Linda passed on Wednesday, I spent a sleepless night, and then drove to Pebble Beach (Not a bad place to be when you are grieving!) to see Lucy!
Her home is magical! Her tree's have Spanish moss hanging from them! The garden is fantastic! Her studio amazing! Her home is what she said mine was, a museum! There was eye candy every where! I was enchanted! There are photos in Flikr AND in the blog under Pebble Beach. I didn't take enough photos!
I have one perfect photo! This one of the Magic Fairy Mushroom as I call it! I KNOW a fairy lives there! Right in front of her magic studio! She has a wonderful chandelier hanging from a tree in front of her studio...a painting of hers on the wall next to the door. Magical paint brushes, photos, and artists dreams are all inside that studio! Her grandfather and great-grandfathers spirits are there...most likely guiding her hands in the beautiful work that she does! This woman is a prolific artist as well! I am SO lucky to have her in my life! It is amazing what she does...her spirit...her attitude...her love of life...I am falling in love with this new friend Lucy! We have a lot in common as well! So amazing!
AND I missed the storm! I got home from there before it hit. I was able to watch movies and be by my fire relaxing. It is just now pounding rain and thunder as I sit here and write!
We started making our trades for Art & Soul, and I finished 10 of them today once I got home. AND we decided on an item we are all making to take to Art & Soul as a group! I am VERY excited about this secret project!
It was a glorious day, evening, and day! We laughed. We cried. We ate. We Shopped! We remembered our dear friend who we miss and can't believe is gone...we are in denial of that and still quite numb.
Ah my friend sent me an email today...and he attached this quote! Thank you Michael!
There's no earthly way of knowing Which direction we are going There's no knowing where we're rowing Or which way the river's flowing Is it raining? Is it snowing? Is a hurricane a-blowing? Not a speck of light is showing So the danger must be growing Are the fires of hell a-glowing? Is the grisly reaper mowing? Yes, the danger must be growing 'Cause the rowers keep on rowing And they're certainly not showing Any signs that they are slowing! - Willy Wonka
This is my 1279th entry and I have to tell you I am PROFOUNDLY sad.
I know I should not be shocked however, I am. On Thursday, December 22, 2005, I called Carol at about 1030 a.m. telling her I had just received an email from Edie, that Linda S. had just moved into her sisters home. And how sad we were and how both of us wanted to drive to Dixon and pick her up and bring her home with us.
Little did we know that 6 days later our Linda would be dead. Cancer kills people...and it sucks! Edie phoned me this afternoon a little after 4pm to tell me that she passed away at 3:10 pm today...I was stunned to silence...and I didn't know what to say. Edie took it the same way. She didn't know what to say either. It was too soon...I really thought she would be here until closer to her birthday in February...and so did Edie, she thought her birthday or near easter...
That all things are possible to him who believes; that they are less difficult to him who hopes; that they are more easy to him who loves, and still more easy to him who preserves in the practice of these three virtues. -Brother Lawrence
Yes, risk-taking is inherently failure-prone. Otherwise, it would be called sure-thing-taking. -Tim McMahon
What cracks me up is the risk taking quote...you understand talking to other artists that we ALL have risk taking issues...and thank gawd some of us jump off the cliff anyway! Pallie and Princess seem to think I do A LOT of art for working full time, I told them, sometimes I feel like I am sitting still while the art world is passing me by!
My gawd it is ALWAYS a glorious day when friends come to visit! And expecially when we are all baring gifts! Wow...what a fun and fast day of it! This made me happy...and sad...because I miss Pallie so much when she leaves after our holiday festivities! I just want her to move in next door...so I can see her all the time! Look at that angelic face (the one in the middle) you would NEVER know that she W H I N E S !!!! Giggle